I’m having one of those moments.
It’s a moment all writers will understand.

You see … there’s this story I feel the need to finish.
But there’s this other story I feel the need to start.
And there’s this other story I feel the need to do something with … but before I do something with it, I must first write a story between my next release and the need-to-do-something.

And here you go … Huh? O_o What did she say?

In simpler terms. I’m conflicted. I have stories to write, from one of my pen names and another, and I have stories to write from one series to another, but I don’t know which one to carry on with.

My heart says one thing, but my head says another.

Why aren’t they in agreement?

Because my head, unfortunately for me, likes to think practically. In other words, I have the Games of Zeus series and the Mimics of Rune series sitting without their 3rd books. Each has one. In fact ‘Games’ has several.

But there are no completed book 3s.

Which means, it’ll be a YEAR or more before I get another book out. 🙁 Because 1) it has to be written and 2) it has to be accepted by my editor and 3) it has to fit into a production schedule unless (EGAD!) I went with another publisher.

Then there’s my heart.

My heart is telling me to write Delta Street. You’re probably going … what? Delta Street? What’s that? Well it’s my alter ego’s latest series, a political dystopian for young adults. Oh yeah, it is. I went there. And my heart is telling me to FINISH that series.

But that series isn’t contracted. That series doesn’t have other books already out there. That series is just … where my interests lie. You see? Heart.

Above is ‘head’.

These two aren’t clicking.

And thus, I’m torn. I’m torn between what I want and what I feel I need to do. If, however, I write Redeemed out of ‘need’, I have a feeling it’ll fall flat. If, however, I write Redeemed out of ‘need’, I might actually get it done. It was, after all, a 2012 goal … missed.

Some might say this is a seriously lame probably to have, but I’m the kind of person that doesn’t like to leave stuff undone. I really don’t usually procrastinate even. Even if it’s a sucky job, I know if I get it done first, I can play more after. Redeemed isn’t like that. It isn’t sucky … and I don’t want it to feel like it … but the golden apple hanging on the guide wire is really making me want to follow it to take a bit.

REALLY.

So I don’t know what to do.

Kinda like the chicken and the egg. Which came first? Who knows!

So for me … which to write first?

Who knows!

What would you do?